Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Rant.

The Tunisians are uprising.
The Yemenis are uprising.
Now everybody is uprising.

Not the Americans, we’re all too busy.
Tear gas doesn't always make a success story, anyway.
"It take 7 people to flip a cop car!" How many people does it take to flip a government?

How do Americans live with themselves?
Denial. "Ignorance is bliss" is our country’s motto
Like it or not.

The movement we all look back to, up to, is the Civil Rights Movement.
How many people marched on Washington that day?
And elsewhere, how many people took to the streets? Boycotted the bus system?

It used to be called the Freedom Movement.
They killed it when they dubbed it the Civil Rights Movement.
That was all they were willing to give, and still it has not been given.

A penguin stands up and says "Where are all the fish?"
Is there a god who gives an answer?
Is it explained to the penguin that due to the careless and selfish nature of humankind, the world is getting too hot and the fish have had to move on to other waters...and still they wash up on foreign shores? Where is the Lorax?!

Well, there's this anarchist collective called the Lorax full of young drunk commies here in town...
"I ride bikes" says So-And-So defensively.
The penguin stares blankly and repeats, "Where are all the fish?"

"You know what I think," says I,
"Any of us who have ever driven a car or paid for rides in cars or buses should put our mouths around an exhaust pipe
And inhale deeply what the rest of the world should never have had to experience.”

I make excuses for driving because I feel guilty daily.
My main excuse being:
I have chosen to live this part of my life within society, against so many of my beliefs, because I need this stability to stay off the drugs!

Or do I?
I don't know but my family relies on me to get them places--to school, to stores, and I have to get to my 12 step meetings and well
Sometimes my knees just hurt!

A homeless man helped me fix my car today.
I thanked him, he didn't mind.
Perhaps he walked away feeling good about himself (such feelings are fleeting) but I rather doubt it stuck in his mind.

Of course it was significant.
Everything is significant.
Still, are most things not forgotten?

All good samaritans are homeless.
They are good samaritans because they are homeless.

Is that what it's gonna take for the average American to become good samaritans? for the average American to be homeless?

Blackbirds are falling from the sky.
Turtle Doves are flying too high to breath.
Who says this is not a sign? Don't be stupid!

How soon can we forget...
The government wants us to forget--
There are WARS to fund!

I don't have time for any of this,
It just goes through my mind while I am walking
To pick my daughter up from school.

If I limit my thoughts to three lines each
It still doesn't seem to control
The voracity of my anxious mind.

Back to MY present moment! Walking in the sunshine in Eugene, Oregon and it is so beautiful.
I want so badly to share this experience and I want so desperately to hold on to this moment
So I reach for my Android pocket phone...

And I...check facebook.
And I...look at pictures.
And I...check for texts.

And I have lost this moment.
I look up from my phone, recognizing the outrageousness of my reaction to serenity.
I say a quick little prayer, try to hang on to it.

I walk past a crossing guard who says hello to me.
I reply with an earnestness for sincerity
And for a fleeting moment I experience a feeling I felt as a child in the summertime but only during the "ah" part of "hi."

Still, I sense the eternity of that feeling
And feelings are eternal,
Good or bad.

Is my present moment any different from the crossing guard’s?
From the Tunisians, the Yemenis, the Egyptians?
The penguin?